Saturday, May 30, 2015

Psychopathy's Role In Modern Psychology.



How should we use the psychopathy label, and what about the diagnosis itself? Have we understood all there is to understand, and where do we put the line between 'psychopath' and 'not psychopath'? A Reader wrote an intelligent comment on this subject and I think it is worth more than another comment, so I reply in the form of the following article where I say what I think about the matter after posting the Reader's comment first.

It comes here:
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I would like your opinion on something. I'm having a bit of trouble with believing this whole 'psychopathy diagnosis'. Why is it that the world has taken on the notion of this diagnosis without trying to objectively evaluate it?
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Personally I do believe there is a distinct personality type that is different to other personality types (ASPD,BPD etc.),which has some of the features of Psychopathy. However I don't think it is as black and white as some people suggest. I've met people in my life who have certain features of psychopathy, and I also wonder whether 'psychopathy' is subject to change."
As a psychologist in training who has read a lot of research into psychopathy, I feel the urge to comment on this.
Firstly, psychopathy *has* been objectively evaluated. In order for a personality trait to be considered valid, it must meet several criteria. First, measures of that trait have to succeed on a statistical test called the Cronbach's alpha, which measures the extent to which the items on that test correlate with each other (which implies that they measure the same underlying thing). Second, the trait has to be stable over time - not 100% stable, but significantly better than chance. And thirdly, it has to predict other variables in a way that makes sense with what the trait is supposed to mean. A number of research studies, using several different psychopathy measures (not just the PCL-R - in fact, it's one of the poorer tests), have found that the trait of psychopathy meets all three of those criteria.
However, it certainly is not black-and-white. No matter which test is used, the scores are always found to be continuously distributed, with most people earning very low scores, some getting slightly higher scores, some getting moderate scores, some high scores and some getting extremely high scores. Precisely where to draw the line is somewhat uncertain.
But just because there's a spectrum doesn't mean there isn't a purpose to defining a category of people with an extreme degree of a particular trait. Autism is on a similar kind of spectrum, but those who score extremely high on autistic traits show important differences from normal people and need to be managed differently (eg avoiding sensory overload, using direct and unambiguous communication, etc). Similarly, those who score extremely high on psychopathic traits need to be managed differently (eg motivating by rewards rather than punishment, explaining moral concepts in terms of self-interest, etc). And if we are trying to identify extreme high scorers, we need to use some sort of categories, even if that means picking an arbitrary dividing line.

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And now my reply (with quotes):
Personally I do believe there is a distinct personality type that is different to other personality types (ASPD,BPD etc.),which has some of the features of Psychopathy.
While it's true that psychopathy is a distinct condition in and of itself, it's also true that most if not all Cluster B conditions share some, but not all, of the same symptoms. But it's there as a distinct diagnosis because it has features that it is alone with. No other condition has an inherent absence of "efficient" functionality in the amygdala and dysfunctions in the frontal cortex which in combination leads to a strongly lowered or, in a few cases, complete absence - of certain core actions such as love and fear.

In all other cases we can observe the same absence, but for one it is never chronic, the person has known and understood mores, to mention an example, and there are usually other traits present which we don't see in psychopaths.

I can mention the feeling of emptiness which is so common in BPD, and the switching between a high level of emotion and a deep coldness and detachment.
As a psychologist in training who has read a lot of research into psychopathy, I feel the urge to comment on this.
Congratulations with this study. It's a big study if one really wants to be good at it.

I had a friend who has Asperger's Syndrome - I only stopped corresponding with her this last Autumn but otherwise knew her long back into my imprisonment where she first contacted me. She wanted to study and become a psychologist. But her immediate family was her only social network (apart from me), and they kept her from realizing this dream of hers. She was so afraid of loosing them that nothing I said could persuade her to go through with it (I haven't experienced before. that my logic, support and loyalty can't break through an unhealthy attachment to others, even family (in fact often family or family members), but in her case there was nothing I could do. And so I stopped taking contact this past Autumn.

The last time I spoke to her I informed her that my health has been declining rapidly due to the refusal to treat me that I've been receiving, and I told her that I could well be on my way to dying soon. But she hasn't cared enough to call or text me, and I just have to write it off as an experience that was good while it lasted, that I know I've helped her A LOT over the years, so not all was for nothing, I was just left out in the cold when I no longer could be the perfect gentleman who took her on cruises or flew her to New York to shop, or - later on - recycled the few really good restaurants in her capital.

So when talking about psychopathy traits in other Cluster B Disorders (or Conditions as I prefer to call them) - I don't know that Asperger's is anything other than an Autism spectrum diagnosis (on it's way out according to some) - but she definitely was a user of people. She would find a man, fall helplessly in love with him and flirt shamelessly until she had him, and then she'd grow bored and almost immediately start testing his boundaries. If he tolerated her promiscuity she lost all respect for him and teased him worse, if he didn't accept it she would feel abused and after some going forth and back free herself in favor of some other guy, and the cycle could start all over again. - I alone was the only one she didn't play these games with, but she showed me proudly how she did it with everybody else. - It all happened over the net, by the way, and she was diagnosed with Schizoid PD as well.

But imagine if her energy and talents could've been directed into a psychology study, what this might have changed - especially if she had a friend/mentor to help her with the coping emotional stuff.
However, it certainly is not black-and-white. No matter which test is used, the scores are always found to be continuously distributed, with most people earning very low scores, some getting slightly higher scores, some getting moderate scores, some high scores and some getting extremely high scores. Precisely where to draw the line is somewhat uncertain.
This is a very significant problem. In Scandinavia (<-- you will find a lot of very nice statements about this place in this Wiki article) f.ex., you can be labeled a psychopath if you score 18 on the PCL-R. Whether you can get the actual diagnosis with such a score I don't know, but in that area it matters little because it't the general opinion that counts and which you will be treated according to.

This is the negative side of psychopathy research. Western societies have for a long time had a tendency to limiting the mainstream code for what is normal.

But this is also the reason why it's so much more important that what cutting edge research has come to know as 'good psychopaths' speak up and get heard, and that will only happen if they're supported by those who understand the message. It is in the end a matter of human rights and the freedom of us all - the freedom to live and think and choose as we individually see fit, for as far as it doesn't hurt others.

That is not to say I believe you shouldn't be allowed to protect yourself - another thing that has been made fully official in Scandinavia: You don't have right to protect yourself or, if you're a woman, to protect your dignity (by law you are not aren't allowed to carry pepper sprays or even deodorants or anything else that can be used in self defense. Weapons are illegal and common citizens are not allowed to own or carry a weapon. Since more or less anything ca be used as a weapon, it up to the police to decide from situation to situation what is a weapon and what isn't. I'm told that a common screwdriver is very often considered a weapon if it helps getting a person convicted.

Oppositely you can get away with horrendous physical crimes without getting much more than a slap over the fingers. 2 years in prison for rape is no uncommon - though any sentence for rape IS uncommon. But the registration fever alone is a weapon that is used against people all of their lives (the blank slate after 10 years is a LIE and doesn't exist except in writing). It is things like these that we're all up against - though I'll admit that Scandinavia is so infected at this point that starting to try and do anything there is a dead dog.

If we are to change anything for the better of mankind we have to act fast and be consistent, and we need to do it from places where the law is working relatively well. San Francisco is such a place, to mention but one. I believe there are places in France and England too, and I know there are many places scattered over the US, where you have the protection of the law that enables you to do something constructive as long as you respect the laws.

And in respect to what I've said about variety and spectra, both here and elsewhere in my writings, I'd still say that Robert Hare isn't all wrong (even though I have changed my opinion of his school of thinking to some extent, but I can still recognize what I first thought when I read some of his texts and books). He has noticed how the system in the Western societies become in themselves psychopathic, and in my opinion there's no doubt about this. But it isn't the psychopaths who make all these decisions, it's the normal people. And they make such decisions because they don't understand psychopathy and are content with the boogeyman theory - something we don't have to understand. Something we can just smug and easy agree is horrendous and inhuman and should be put away forever or even killed, eliminated.
But just because there's a spectrum doesn't mean there isn't a purpose to defining a category of people with an extreme degree of a particular trait. Autism is on a similar kind of spectrum, but those who score extremely high on autistic traits show important differences from normal people and need to be managed differently (eg avoiding sensory overload, using direct and unambiguous communication, etc). Similarly, those who score extremely high on psychopathic traits need to be managed differently (eg motivating by rewards rather than punishment, explaining moral concepts in terms of self-interest, etc). And if we are trying to identify extreme high scorers, we need to use some sort of categories, even if that means picking an arbitrary dividing line.
I completely agree. This is what we hope to get out and make others understand. Once we can get to a point where authorities such as psychiatry, general healthcare, police and other coercive authorities, we can start talking to the congress (and what else it is called in other countries) about arranging some wider and easier available schooling and education about psychopathy and the role it can play in our society if we let it and if we know enough about it to let it.

As for the place and role of psychopathy in the modern diagnostic system of criteria, I still think it deserves a place, and I have to say that I am not much for arbitrarily decided lines or definitions when it comes to what is human and how it is human or less human.

I think we will need to come to terms with the fact that there are gray areas in everything, we can continue to draw lines and we can draw them precisely, but new ones will be called for because each new line will reveal a new gray area, and then that has to be evaluated until we can find a perfect position and form for a line for that. It is called evolution, and there's nothing wrong with it in and of itself.

The problem arrives when we start to think the cognitive process of the evaluation system is linear and final.

We can already see from examples dating back in our own present Christian Era history that reality is subject to change when the circumstances and way of thinking calls for it.

Lesss than 500 years ago we navigated the sea using a compass that was designed according to a system the had the Earth as the centrum of the universe. In other words, we navigated after a system that had the Earth sitting static and unmoving in the center while everything else, including the Sun, revolved around the Earth.

Today, when we look at the sextant and the compass of those days we can see it is ludicrous to base a global travelling system on the thesis that the Earth doesn't move and that everything revolves around us.

But it worked! And the Theory surrounding the Reality that was generally believed the be the final and indisputable version thereof at the time, worked. It worked until new thoughts came up that superseded the old world view because what it stood for, what it explained was supported by enough people, and it made sense!

What is just as thought provoking is that much the same unwillingness to accept the new paradigm back then went on as id happening now, in our own time about psychopathy and world economy and how and by whom the world is being ruled in general. - The only real difference is that this time we really better have to act fast! And that means Act! where ever you can, support anybody and everybody who leads the march in that direction which you want and wish to bear fruit - and do it loudly!

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If you haven't already, I would strongly encourage you all to read Kevin Dutton's and Andy McNab's The Psychopath's Guide to Success and Jon Ronson's The Psychopath Test.

Wednesday, May 27, 2015

Emotions In Psychopaths & Narcissists.


A very interesting comment was placed under the article 'Does Psychopaths Know They're Psychopaths?' by a Reader who had some very interesting questions regarding differences between Psychopathy and Narcissism. He uses the best known and certainly in my opinion a primer example of someone who represents both conditions to a T: Mr. Sam Vaknin.

And I thought I would take the time to write a little extended answer and publish an article about the subject, in part because the relationship between psychopathy and narcissism is undeniable, but also because it continues - for good reasons - to have an interest in the wider public.


But just before I go ahead and post, I thought I should mention that I have found out what happened to the article I published yesterday and which never showed. It's rather banal and not worth going into detail about, but I happen to have the original text saved, so I will publish it again.

It's a two (or maybe three) parts article, and I will still have to find image, good websites that are worth linking to, selecting labels, and do editing, all of which usually takes at least as long as writing the article itself... No, that's not really true. When I get started writing I am finished in a lot shorter time than any time I have spend on the finishing touches: Edit, links, labels, and proof reading.

First the text from the Reader who asked me and wrote the words, and following after that is my reply which hopefully answers what my Reader is asking. - I will have to say, though, that you seem to have understood quite a lot yourself, and there were times where I could add nothing new. Anyway, here we go:
Do you know this Internet Psychopath called Sam Vaknin? He knows everything about what he stand for and that is total frustration. He can't help it to hate people. He even hates people with not only his mask but also the two childs inside of him hate people. That's one of the main differences between a narcissist and a psychopath. A narcissist is frustrated because the child inside has created a fake ego that defends him from harm. This false ego has the same traits as some ignorant child that wants everything done the way he wants and he lies and manipulates to get it. Children are btw more narcissistic than real grownups that had a normal childhood and got raised without traumatic events. So, narcissists are kinda childish when you understand their behaviour and im sure a pscyhopath can control and hurt a narcissist very easily because a narcissist stands or falls with the need of feeling admired and getting attention the way he tries to control it. Without his ability to control people he falls apart right? PSychopaths dont have this problem right? They can be alone without a problem. Is this really true or do you think at this part the defence mechanism of Sam Vaknin is talking as he knows he is a psychopath instead of the narcissist he claimed to be? In brainscans (documentary I-psychopath) he scored out of the roof on psychopathy. Still, he does it all for money (power). A lot of the traits remain the same.
He also claims he just can't understand what people feel when it comes to emotions. You claim you do feel this because you know the differences. THat means you have to have emphaty orelse you can't see the differences between your emotions or the emotions of others. THat would mean that psychopaths have emotions? Please explain this. Thank you. You can call me Fleetwood if you like. :)
Yes, I know Sam - not offline, and I've only exchanged a few words with him, but I know who he is and what he stands for.

A lot of psychopaths are narcissists too, and if I'm to be completely honest - and I am - I also know how it feels to hate people. I've hated people most of my life, 'even behind the mask'.

That said, I do believe he is more narcissistic than I am, and that's not meant to be degrading, in fact I have some admiration for what he does. He really does take it all the way, and while he would say "I can foresee the outcome of everything I do, so there's nothing brave about it", I'd still say there's something brave about standing up in public and declare that you hate children... he made a short but very honest video on Youtube: 'Narcissists Hate Children and Envy Them'about the subject but even I was too much of a pussy to compliment him for having expressed something I myself have felt when I was younger but still an adult.

The difference, I believe, is that narcissists feel negatively all the time, the emotions Vaknin express in the video I've mentioned are not fleeting or occasional, they're the feelings he have for children every time he is presented for situations where children are involved like he explains.... and - as I said - I do think it is a sign of bravery to be open to this extent, for children is probably the one taboo that none of the rest of us have admitted any ill feelings against.

Well I've finally been open about it now, in this reply, and I'm going to again in a future article. -- But my ill emotions regarding children aren't chronic, and therein lies the difference between Vaknin and other major narcissists, and psychopaths who's narcissism is secondary.

You're right: At least to the outsider who understands a narcissist his feelings appear childish, and he is certainly - a common narcissist is - easy to control when you know the more central things about his emotional life, and they easily fall apart if they loose control and ability to maintain it.

But make no mistake about Sam Vaknin, he's no ordinary narcissist. He may exaggerate here and there about his superiority, but that doesn't mean he has no superiority over most people, he obviously does, and that too deserves admiration - something he never got when it was most important to him.

Your question about psychopaths, about whether or not they can live alone without feeling lonely, that, I would say, is definitely true. I haven't met a psychopath who knows what it means to 'feel lonely'.

Psychopaths can easily be alone.

It is being isolated, not necessarily from people but from the world, it is being isolated from your surroundings whatever they are and being unable to go exploring or go out and build a life for yourself, start doing something good, for example (as in my case, ironically enough); it is things like these that we don't have the capacity to tolerate well.

Had I not luckily arrived at a time in my life, after 3-4 years of deep research and self scrutinizing, I would very likely - or rather, if I'm to be completely honest - I would've gone out and killed people during night time. I would've done it as a way to get an outlet, a means to survive another day or two, and I wouldn't have needed to be paid even though I'm as poor as ever and deeply dependent upon somebody to lend me a hand.

But instead of killing people and stop caring about what I have come to view as possibly the most important thing I will be contributing to society during my life time (if I manage to turn things around!), I become horribly self destructive[1*].

If you have read the last few articles I've published here in the blog, you will know that I am dying - not only from medical malpractice and denied treatment and surgery, but from the isolation that has been forced upon me. I can say with complete honesty that I meet more lonely people outside than I ever did inside prison[2*].

I think I trailed off...[3*]

Make no mistake, Sam Vaknin is no ordinary Narcissist. I suspect that if psychopathy had been in the eye of the media when he began his authorship and started an internet presentation based career, he would've put more emphasis on his psychopathy. And his psychopathy is what enables him to distance himself emotionally when he feels slighted or attacked (as you saw in 'I, Psychopath - at least according to the journalist who must've been an emotionally fragile person, and it doesn't surprise me that it was someone like him who felt drawn to the project. When you experience emotional 'overload' your memory has a way of creating or altering things so that they appear worse than they in reality were.

I myself have experienced this on several occasions, and while in this case it did Sam Vaknin good in that it helped cement his capacity for mental cruelty and control, in my case it has at times led to me being accused of doing or saying things that I didn't do or say, and there's nothing I can do about it because people never believe him who is known as the stronger, bad guy.

Sam Vaknin can distance himself emotionally when the situation calls for it, this is what makes him successful. When he has weak moments he don't show it but retreats, and I suspect that has cost him a few business deals. But that is for him to know and for the rest of us to only guess about.

You write:
He also claims he can't understand what people feel when it comes to emotions.
That must be the emotional level of understanding that he talks about, for he most definitely understands from an intellectual level what people feels very well, just like any other psychopath does. He's also an eminent observer with a very well functioning high intellect, and at least the first is something he has in common with psychopaths everywhere (far from all psychopaths - or narcissists, for that matter - are intelligent let alone highly intelligent, or has an intellect that functions well).

Neither narcissists nor psychopaths understand emotionally what other people are feeling. The psychopaths don't understand it because they lack the neuropsychological ability to feel the emotions themselves, and narcissists don't understand them because they have subliminized these feelings so deeply and so well that they may as well not be there in the first place - though they can be brought to surface with the help or the unrefusable cruel destructiveness of someone who lives to see people's minds fall apart and themselves go into a chronic state of madness of catatonic non-existence.

This, again, is understandably not possible to do to a psychopath, and that is so whether or not he is a narcissist. Psychopaths are simply too well educated in the game of emotional-psychological hide and seek and have fine tuned their cognitive abilities so that only the most narcissistic can be caught off guard or reached that way.

I will say it is reality that psychopaths can absolutely be alone without a problem if they have a reason to do so and put their mind to it (are focused).

Do I think Sam Vaknin is aware that he is a psychopath first and a narcissist second? Well I don't even know that he really IS a narcissist second to being a psychopath. I will say that being a psychopath is the most 'powerful' aspect of his psyche, while being a narcissist is the antisocial way that his personality has grown to develop it's traits most prominently and visible.

You write:
In brainscans (documentary I-psychopath) he scored out of the roof on psychopathy. Still, he does it all for money (power).
No, that is incorrect. If he did it all for money and vague power he would be motivated only by typical psychopathic traits. But remember that Vaknin has an intellect and a background that - if he chose to - he could no doubt use to gain a similar amount of money and vague power, but he wouldn't be able to so it as a free person in the sense that a man like himself needs to do things. There would be a lot of conditions on part of those who gave him the necessary contacts and loans, i.e., to make such an accomplishment.

The truth is he does it very much out of narcissistic motivation: I need to be my own man, I can't be below someone else, I can't answer to others, I know I'm better than others so I have to make my livelihood in a way that gives me sole power and as much money as possibly, but maybe most of all: Narcissistic Supply (= people who have to work with or for him on his terms - some of these people doing this freely since some people will see in him what he is striving to show the world that he is gifted with and can contribute with.


It is true that I say - and keep saying - that I have the capacity to feel empathy, but I am aware that my empathy is shorter lived than that of normal people, unless the person I have empathy remains within my immediate company for an extended time. Even so I will tend to switch my empathy for sympathy, and it is often the case that my sympathy makes me able to do much more for a hurting person than the mpathy I had at first.

Sympathy is the same as empathy but without the emotion, and it is the cognitive understanding of the other person's feelings and situation that make me able to see the whole, the larger picture, where most people see only the person who is hurting (and themselves who are hurting along with that person).


My extended awareness enables me to see what is needed in the situation and make decisions that will get those necessary things done. -- I don't have number of how many times I've taken control on an accident scene - car crash, for example - and been the one who made sure everything went smoothly - or as smoothly as possible in a situation where a lot of people have to follow orders given by one individual who were some of the times much younger than themselves, and who had no visible authority to take any leader position.

I don't know what you mean by: "[I] do feel this because [I] know the differences."

But even so it is true, I do indeed have feelings, and so do most other psychopaths. The reason for this is that psychopathy isn't a set one-fits-all condition, it's a personality scale that has a lot of variation between the individuals, some have a little bit of a lot of different types of feelings or emotions while others have few, but strong emotions. How do you think we would get through life if we felt nothing? We'd have no reason, no incentive to do anything to survive.

The notion of the psychopath as some lizard like being with no human traits at all except for his appearance and ability to talk and mimic social skills, is ridiculous to the point of being outright laughable if it wasn't because it is so unbelievably harmful, not only to the psychopaths - let's forget about us for a second! - but to society and the future of the human race per se!

And that, my friend, is what I have learned, and it is what keeps me going - though I still don't do it as well as I would like, but am struggling to change that.

And I believe I will return strong and capable as I always have! I believe that I will rise again, and I will do so in spite of everything!

"I WILL BE BACK!"

As one certain movie villain said. And be back he did - as a hero!

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[1*] - I can't help it, I must do this or... go out and commit very nasty types of violent crimes. So I take lots of drugs to ease the pain and make it possible to sit and write for an hour at the time before it gets too painful, and I drug myself into a stupor when I get so angry or frustrated that I simply can't remain in that situation and therefore have to remove myself from it (which, as we know, isn't physically possible at this time) or give in to horrible urges that I hardly can call urges anymore because they're only a possible outlet.

Other than that I chain smoke and have been forced to eat take-away food from the approx. 1,5 mill citizen capital's only fast food restaurant who delivers past 11 PM, and one such pizza, if I take away most of the fat stuff keeps my weight at a stand still for as far as I only eat one every day. But as another means of trying to numb my frustrations and anger, I have lately eaten more than that, so I'm growing beyond what's healthy or comfortable.

[2*} - I happen to live in the country in the world who has the largest number of 'lonely' and single people (yes, they know this because everything the population does is being registered and recorded - AND kept secret from the population, but that's a future discussion).

[3*] - I used to trail off a lot when I first began keeping this blog. I have a slight dyslexia along with the psychopathic ADHD-like trait being extremely pronounced in me, so it has taken me a LONG time to get over this trailing off to other subjects and forgetting what I was talking about to begin with in the process. That I see this returning is a very clear sign of the seriousness of the damage that my current treatment and overall situation does to me.

Psychopathy And The Role Of Experts.


I published an article yesterday but can't see it anywhere on my blog, so in the meantime until it shows up I will post an exchange between myself and a Reader who asks some very interesting questions about the concept of psychopathy and the role that so called psychopathy experts play... 
I would like your opinion on something. I'm having a bit of trouble with believing this whole 'psychopathy diagnosis'. Why is it that the world has taken on the notion of this diagnosis without trying to objectively evaluate it?
It has to do with some changes in society where people began to put more emphasis on 'order' and uniformness. But just as much does it have to do with the evolution of psychology, the wish to put nature and the world on a formula, again out of a wish for more order, for a world that man could predict and mold as he saw fit. In such a world it is not surprising that people also want to control each other's behavior.
Personally I do believe there is a distinct personality type that is different to other personality types (ASPD,BPD etc.),which has some of the features of Psychopathy. However I don't think it is as black and white as some people suggest. I've met people in my life who have certain features of psychopathy, and I also wonder whether 'psychopathy' is subject to change.
There are indeed happening some very fundamental changes in how psychopathy is viewed right now, but it happens at the cutting edge of psychopathy research and will take a long time to catch on in the general forensic community. 

That said, Hare's musing were not wrong per se, the people he describes exist. The new - or renewal of old - findings are that there are also an even larger group of psychopaths who don't fit the highly antisocial criteria. While psychopathy as such, as a personality type if you will, is genetically inherent in the individual from pre-birth, the antisocial components seems to come down to the old question about upbringing.
WARNING: I'm GOING TO BE A LITTLE MEAN NOW. Dr Robert Hare is full of bullshit. The man has tried to sensationalise this whole concept. He makes around $35,000 a year just because people believe the drivel that comes out of his mouth. I'm saying this all independently to my thoughts around the existence of the psychopathy diagnosis. Whether the man is right or not, he still talks a lot of bullshit. He has tried to stop people publishing work because it goes against his measure, which is food for thought.
Well, psychopaths have been sensationalized for a long time, Hare certainly did not invent that. But it's interesting that he has tried to stop publication of work that disagrees with his own theories. You're not thinking of Don Johnson's 'The Psychopathy Test', are you? He was very hurt over the way Johnson ironicized over the whole concept. Personally I love the book and think it was fresh air in a debate that has too long been all about serial killers and movie characters, i.e.
Also I work in mental health and originally wanted to pursue a career in Clinical Psychology. Now though I am starting to question the whole profession (e.g. I don't like the concept of depriving people of their liberty ,say for example, just because they believe they might be Jesus etc.). Does the concept of a 'psychopath' serve a morally cleansing purpose i.e. there is no way someone 'normal/non-psychopathic' could possibly commit such a heinous crime?
One word: Nazi Germany. - Or IOW, yes, normal people can very much commit such heinous crimes. All they need is to be told by an authority and be given the promise of being 100% responsibility free. 

Another thing is that you can commit heinous atrocities against humans without being criminal at all. We all see it - even though we may not "see" it because it has become the norm. Where I currently live most that we know about humankind has become a parody hidden only just beneath a surface from under which most of people's lives are revolving around mentally and economically hurting and keeping others down. It's all about fear of seeing that they have lost their own humanity, sold their souls for a false sense of security by suspecting everything that walks and talks and pledging eternal obedience to the state. Half the population lives alone and about half the population works for this faceless state that has cleverly arranged it so that they can never be held responsible for any wrongdoing.
Anyway to sum up these are my thoughts on the topic. I could be entirely wrong, and I am quite open to adapt my beliefs if I'm presented with new evidence. I am simply contemplating the topic. Nonetheless ,whether psychopathy is a static, black and white diagnosis or not, we can't deny the amount of money that is to be had from such a concept.
Well seen. Still, I think the question is more about how we define psychopathy than whether people like myself exist or not. But again, sensationalize anything and you can make a lot of money from it. 
P.S: I hope you find some relief from the knee pain, as someone who suffers from arthritis I can empathise a little (I am in my early 20s).
Thank you. I have met several people over the years who suffered with arthritis, and I remember wondering how hurtful and limiting it must be to have such a condition. I had a neighbor once who used to come over so I could button up her blouse and jacket. I was impressed by her always apparently good spirit, though she took a lot of drugs to withstand the pain she was always ready with a smile and interested in hearing the latest news.

I don't know if I have told you what you wanted to know, but then, I myself am also not quite without pain these days and it has a way of messing with your ability to focus. And, as we know, I have issues in that regard already, so... But don't hesitate to ask me again if I missed something.

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PS. I would have posted this Reader's text in it's entirety, but it came up on a white background like we saw a recent article do. The text can be viewed under the article named 'A Psychopath Begins To Tell His Story' in the comments section.

Thursday, May 7, 2015

I'm A Middle Aged & Mellowing Psychopath.


When I was A Child I had Certain Beliefs, certain Convictions, And Certain Wishes for My Future, for How My Life Would Be and for What I Would Accomplish.

I don't know how typical I am as a psychopath, but I guess most psychopaths think likewise about themselves.

What I do know is that I always thought I would find a Soul Mate, and for many years I expected to fall in love like I saw others do. A lot of broken Illusions could have been avoided if somebody had told me that the way I would - or will, if I get the chance - be able to connect with a woman is not the same way that most people connect with a special person. 

Such a person could've told me that I cannot love in the same way that normal people love, and a little later in life there were a few who tried to tell me this. But by then I had already had so many negative experiences with people filling me with false hopes and/or condemning me for being a non-human at the same time - a long line of disappointed expectations and encounters with what I will still to this day call plain and simple mean cruelty towards someone who was different from the norm - and so I did not listen to these people when I finally met some who told me the truth about me not being able to love the same way that normal people love.

So I disregarded what these few individuals said and continued on with my belief that without doubt I would some day meet someone I would love and who would love me.

Now, that I am about midways through my life, I am experiencing what professionals said I wouldn't: I am going through the famous mellowing that most psychopaths go through around this time in their lives (though for most it happens earlier), and maybe it is time I explain a little more about what mellowing means to me.

I have always had an energy that got me running like a steam train without breaks. Robert Hare calls it the psychopath's ADHD-like behavioral element[1*]. This energy used to block off much of what other people tried to tell me, and that coupled with my bad experiences with listening to others at all, made me run in my own direction which turned out to be very bad choices in many cases. I thought I couldn't trust what anybody else told me, so I had to experience everything for myself.

Hence the first murder, hence the rapes, and hence so many other bad things, some of which at the time gave me those big thrills that I always craved so much.

I will in an upcoming article point to some things about me in my very early life which - in my opinion, and, I'm sure, in the opinions of those psychopathy researchers who have given the world the latest groundbreaking and most important discoveries about psychopaths as we are in reality rather than in the speculation of somebody's mind,... they will share this opinion of mine, the opinion that I had in my Neurogenetic make-up all the traits of what should've become what Kevin Dutton calls a Good Psychopath, a pro-social psychopath and a non-violent, non-criminal and non-abusive psychopath.

More on that in a later article, but for now I will tell you that all the thrills and curiosity satisfying bad deeds that I have done in the past, were done in another era and I have changed profoundly since then - funny enough, I didn't change much in prison, it was when I came out and got access to a computer, and finally when I began to seriously study and do research about what psychopathy is and how it might relate to myself... It was this that brought about the real change.

And now I can honestly say that I have no wish to neither repeat nor do something similar as I did before my imprisonment. I have absolutely no wish to return to that way of life.

And after all, I have already lived that life, so why would I do it again? Especially with the understanding of how hollow my reasons were for what I did, it simply is something I will not return to - even though I sense it is expected of me, and at least two different of my psychopathy research affiliated supervisors have an urge to push me back into that life style that they aren't even consciously aware that they have and that they're acting out every time they're around me. But thanks to my natural instinct for psychology I know exactly what they're doing and I never take advice from neither of them (though of course I have to play the game and pretend to find their suggestions noteworthy and of special interest).

I have no lust for blood or for being violent anymore. I was that way for most of my life, and now all I want is to be given a chance to live a non-criminal life, a life with someone whom I can take care of and who's side I can stand beside throughout the remaining years of our lives. I am not good at cooking or other house keeping activities (though I can help and also learn fast), but I am good at everything practical that a house needs done.

If I had a knee implant, or an amputation (which may be called for because by now it may be too late for a knee implant - I'll need expert orthopedic surgeons to decide that) and prosthesis, so I can walk almost normally, there isn't much I can't do.

And this is what mellowing coupled with traits I were born with, as well as my own hard work during the last 3-4 years, has meant to me. I have changed and will never again be the guy everybody fears - though I can always do what's needed if somebody I care for is being threatened - that part never goes away: What you've once learned will remain in your repertoire of skills.

I wonder if I will be allowed to live like normal people - like surely most psychopaths do. I can see myself and a woman I love, a woman who is my equal and who will never need to be afraid of me, ever!! - in a house or apartment in San Francisco, or Philadelphia, or anywhere is a possibility, South America or England for instance - but not Northern or North Eastern Europe.

Ah, but I better stop dreaming. Hope is necessary, but to start thinking somebody might like you enough to let you make her happy is a dangerous thing.

I will never be 'normal' in the way that 'normal' people are 'normal', but I don't have to be normal to be happy or to make others happy, and that is all that matters to me.

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[1*] - I can add that this ADHD-like condition of mine has made my inability to walk, run, sit normally, and sleep in a bed like other people, which is the result of me not receiving a knee implant, also interferes severely with my ability to focus. I can hardly read a book because of this, and maybe me Reader can see why it also makes my keeping this blog a major accomplishment, something I really want to do but which I am regularly too impaired to do. And I hope I have your understanding and patience for I promise you I am doing my very best - and yes, I Will get it done!

Tuesday, May 5, 2015

A Psychopath In Dire Need To Connect.


I'm a Psychopath, yes, but I am so much more. Now I am on My Way, or on A Way, and through - or rather in, most certainly - a Tunnel (example). It's a Tunnel Dark and Foreboding, and filled with Dread that I may never get away from where I currently reside and live in Enslavement and Poverty. Dread [1*] that I may never meet that One Woman Who Will Care For Me as I WIll Most Definitely Care For Her, and For Who's Side I Will Stand Beside For Life (and a Good Psychopaths' Loyalty Knows No Bound![2*]. Dreading that My Life will Amount To Nothing, that My Ambition and Visions of Making A Difference In The Psychopathy Debate will never come to be because I don't have the IT Skills nor the Money available To Pay for Others To Help me with it.

Maybe it's my time. Not to live my dreams, but to leave this world. I have so much more to say, about the reasons for all the bad things I've done - reasons that may astound some people who think psychopaths do bad things just because they feel like it and do them on a whim - a view that I myself have helped somewhat to create because I didn't know very much about psychopathy at the time, I was newly released from prison and had no experience with the Internet, so I went with what I saw other psychopaths do who came forth to apparently tell the truth about themselves and their condition.

At the same time I fell in with a crowd o9n a website which was very much into the 'psychopaths/sociopaths are badass, man!". The author herself wasn't on this bandwagon, I must add, but she encouraged it among her readers nevertheless while at the same time she was the first and - at the time - only experience I had ever had with someone who wrote things that were almost similar to my own feelings, thoughts, ways, oddities and abnormalities.

At the same time I had, by the team who supervised me and ran the psychopathy research test program - been deemed one of the fewer psychopaths who do NOT mellow with age, and indeed I felt this was true, because I felt I was ever as energetic and holding the selfsame views that I always had.

Little did I know that as my public announcement of what I was and how I saw things would lead to an actual study, research into what psychopathy really is. And I found it to be in the process of changing quite a bit these latest few years - though not so where I'm now stuck living, though, quite the contrary, but that's another story.

By now it's been little more than 3,5 years that I've run my blog, and I've done serious study for at least 2,5 years if not more. And little did I know that my research would bring me knowledge that I had never dreamed possible. I would learn to see psychopaths and their behavior, plus the background for our behavior, from the viewpoint of non-psychopaths and from the professional forerunners in the research.

Least of all did I know that it would change me profoundly, that I would indeed mellow, but freely and voluntarily. I would gain one major new ambition, and it was this simple one: To become a law abiding and positively contributing member of society, I would give back from all the wrong I have done, and I would - if at all possible and if anybody would have me - married or at least live with a close special other, someone who would be my companion throughout life.

I've always wanted this, but I've been too arrogant to believe it could be such a deep wish as it has become. But here it is, and without someone to live a normal life with, and without being able to leave this place and this country, I will die soon. Of that I am no longer in doubt. But that too is another story.

My final words in this article is a plea meant for the ears of the very people who will absolutely most likely not listen:

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PS. I apologize for the condition of this article. 

I have no idea why the text shows on white background (and in some places the writing itself is grey). I have tried to correct it, even written the whole article anew by hand (no copy & paste), but it remains the same. I hope my Readers are able to decipher what I have written for I don't see how I can change it.

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[1*] - See also Fear and Angst found on the same page.

[2*] - Loyalty is something I've been particularly known for and have proven myself capable of throughout my life - sometimes to my own undoing. But this is a topic for a future article.