Sunday, February 27, 2011

The Psychopath's Advocate?

Guilt is a bag of fucking bricks, all you gotta do is set it down!

The topic and plot of the movie 'The Devil's Advocate' has many layers, the main one of which is to present the analogy between the role played Christian Devil before before the spiritual aspect of reality was abandoned and replaced with the psychopath. Psychopaths are our contemporary equivalent to the Christian Demon, or even - as in this movie - The Devil Himself. and that of the about a brilliant young lawyer - played by Keanu Reeves, who performs vigorously and absolutely believable as always - Kevin, who gets hired by one of the largest firms in New York, where he gets sucked deeper and deeper into, amoral and decadent ways. The movie 'discusses' good and evil based on the Christian religious theology and bible scriptures are frequently cited by all the main characters.

The setting is modern day corporations on high level and some court room settings. Kevin, the young lawyer, moves to New York with his beautiful and lovely, enthusiastic wife, they see their dreams coming true. But of course that is not what is going to happen. It turns out that his new boss is no one else than the Devil Himself... or a Psychopath!

I only set the Stage, you pull your own strings!

John Milton - played by Al Pacino with that ever present raw, aggressive quality of his - is portraying the epitome of everything we (think we) know about a so called 'high functioning' psychopath. I personally never liked Pacino much, but I have to say he delivers this one well. It's right on the spot in mannerisms and expressions, and the way he plays on almost every emotional trigger you can think of, all rolled up in one presentation, and therefore always getting under the skin of whomever he's talking to. It's all their own doing, but it's his, the devils, the psychopath's, orchestration.

The whole thing is like one, big test!

Kevin's wife - played by the unusually talented and beautiful Charlize Theron - is the only true empath, or innocent, person in this movie. And since it's a story about decadence and evil within a normal, wealthy, modern day high profile office setting, every new step the characters take to make their own lives better are steps through more depravity - something which is mostly hinted at, especially by Pacino (the psychopath, of course) - towards their own downfall.

I don't want to look at myself in the mirror, I'm afraid I'll see a monster!

I think the portrayal of Kevin's wife as she falls victim to Milton's play and becomes schizophrenic, or haunted by supernatural entities - depending on how you want to see it - is right on the spot as well and a good portrayal of how psychopaths can affect empathic people. It's nothing personal, but she's in the way, Milton wants to get her husband for his own purposes and can't allow anyone else to have any claim on his emotions. So he plays her, turns her upside down and inside out (envisioned by her change from a curly long hair blond to a short straight hair brunette)

In many ways this is a brilliant movie, and even though I generally are very am very ambivalent towards it when movies play heavily on the knowledge about typical psychopathic character, behavior and manipulative styles (which are comfortably vaguely laid out, but nevertheless quite clear), and in this case even on mannerisms, facial expressions and body language, I have to say I love it.

Milton has no home, except for his no apartment, he lives nowhere, no one has ever seen anything but his office, and he calls it his home. When Kevin asks "But then where do you...?" Milton answers: "fuck? Everywhere!!". Another analogy to how it is said that psychopaths always are secretive about their background and past.

Who can rightfully deny the twentieth century was rightfully mine?

A lot of people would agree that the psychopaths have been 'playing' the world for perhaps several decades, perhaps 500 years, and everything in between according to who you're talking to.
The final scene takes place in Milton's penthouse office where Kevin confronts Milton, whom he has found out is (of course) really his father, and a discussion about (the Christian) God and The Devil takes place. Pacino does it well, perhaps emphasizing a tad too much on aggressive aspects of his performance - but he always does that - but most of the time he does t exactly how his character would do it. And after all, The Devil is not one specific ever persistent personality.

God is a sadist! He's an absentee landlord! Worship that? NEVER!!


Kevin typically asks several times: "What are you?!". How often do we not hear questions like that about 'ourselves', the Psychopaths and Sociopaths?

When Kevin asks: "What do you want from me?", Milton's answer is a line I have said often myself: "I want you to be yourself! I tell you boy, guilt is a bag of fucking bricks, all you gotta do is set it down!".

"Are we negotiating?" ... "Always!"

Milton's monologue has multiple perfect points that I just could not disagree with. Yet I know he's representing the Devil, and more so: The Psychopath as modern research finds us. And that tells me I must have a lot of opposition, and if this is what neurological and genetic science is looking to eradicate I'm not sure I'd even want to be around to see the result. Then again, I probably would stick around if I had the chance.

"Better reign in hell than serve in heaven, is that it?"
"Why not? I've been here with my nose on the ground from the beginning. I've inspired every sensation Man has ever had! I cared about what he wanted and I NEVER judged him! Why? Because I never rejected him, in spite of all his imperfections I'm a FAN of Man!! ... I'm a Humanist, maybe the last humanist!"

I will not go into detail, it would be such a shame for those who haven't seen this movie.

Who in their right mind can rightfully deny that the twentieth century was entirely mine?

Is this our time, the psychopaths' time? Many seem to think it is, and I would agree, especially with that in mind we are concretely subject for special scrutiny in a way we've never seen it before. But to be just, I think all Times will always be Our Times. We are one of the main driving forces of nature, and that is the way it will always be.

I'm peaking, Kevin! It's my time now! It's OUR time!

But we better reap what we sow, do it well and do it now, because there may not be a whole lot of time left to do it since the herd is using the fire - the fire we stole and generously gave it - to scheme and invent means to our destruction. It'll be their destruction too, of course, I guess there's a comfort in that. Either way, if they do not, pollution or the rapidly growing global population will see to it that times are going to change, and it will not be that long before they do.
I'm aware that most of those who carry my label do not carry a whole lot of concern about the future. But I also know there's an elite amongst us - as there are elites in every group and subgroup; every majority and minority in existence, they all have elites - and they DO care. They will want to see to it their genes get passed on and their knowledge too.

This is my prerogative, this is my ambition!

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Thursday, February 24, 2011

Give It 2 Me!

This video is the expression of what describes the very epitome of the most often mentioned character traits in Sociopaths and Psychopaths. But it also expressed some very universal things, if perhaps not exactly Christian tradition, nor Buddhist. These are things great esoterics and mystics, prophets and philosophers of all times have said in a multitude of ways.

I'm sure no one thought about Psychopaths or Sociopaths when this music video was created. It's by sheer coincidence that I happen to be having the textbook descriptions from a variety of sources very present in memory having spend a large part of my time studying and getting myself acquainted with all the most prominent aspects as well as more and more the special fields of science and research that pertains to how our society and the leading experts today are approaching the subject ... to them it is a problem, not a subject. To them we're not an interesting subject that they'd like to learn more about or get to know because of our fascinating skills and tendency towards having very charming and likable personalities.

I have always found it contradicting that the very traits people admire in those in power or in celebrities, suddenly become fascist, anarchist, criminal and antisocial if it is one someone who carries the characteristics of a psychopath or a sociopath who say it.

The song in this video, 'Give it to me!', was on top of the charters worldwide for several months and is still being regularly played in radio and TV.

Who among my readers believe that people, when they listen to this song, think:

"This song expresses the egotistic mentality, that is so typical for Sociopaths/Psychopaths! It is Antisocial and misanthropic! How awful!"

.....

Give it 2 me!

What are you waiting for?
Nobody's gonna show you how
Why work for someone else
To do what you can do right now?

Got no boundaries and no limits
If there's excitement, put me in it
If it's against the law, arrest me
If you can handle it, undress me

Don't stop me now, don't need to catch my breath
I can go on and on and on
When the lights go down and there's no one left
I can go on and on and on

Give it to me, yeah
No one's gonna show me how
Give it to me, yeah
No one's gonna stop me now

They say that a good thing never lasts
And then it has to fall
Those are the the people that did not
Amount to much at all

Give me the bassline and I'll shake it
Give me a record and I'll break it
There's no beginning and no ending
Give me a chance to go and I'll take it

Don't stop me now, don't need to catch my breath
I can go on and on and on
When the lights go down and there's no one left
I can go on and on and on

Give it to me, yeah
No one's gonna show me how
Give it to me, yeah
No one's gonna stop me now

(Pharrell:)
Watch this

Get stupid, get stupid, get stupid, don't stop it (what?)
Get stupid, get stupid, get stupid, don't stop it (what?)
Get stupid, get stupid, get stupid, don't stop it (what?)
Get stupid, get stupid, get stupid, don't stop it

Get stupid, get stupid, get stupid, don't stop it
(to the left, to the right, to the left, to the right)
Get stupid, get stupid, get stupid, don't stop it
(to the left, to the right, to the left, to the right)
Get stupid, get stupid, get stupid, don't stop it
(to the left, left, right, right, left, left, right, right)
Get stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid...
(left, left, right, right, left, left, right, right)

Don't stop me now, don't need to catch my breath
I can go on and on and on
When the lights go down and there's no one left
I can go on and on and on

Give it to me, yeah
No one's gonna show me how
Give it to me, yeah
No one's gonna stop me now

You're only here to win
Get what they say?
You're only here to win
Get what they do?
They'd do it too
If they were you
You done it all before
It ain't nothing new

You're only here to win
Get what they say?
You're only here to win
Get what they do?
They'd do it too
If they were you
You done it all before
It ain't nothing new

Give it to me, yeah
No one's gonna show me how
Give it to me, yeah
No one's gonna stop me now
Give it to me, yeah
No one's gonna show me how
Give it to me, yeah
No one's gonna stop me now

Give it to me

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

A Word about Feelings. - (Part II)




I haven't overlooked the many reasons one can use to argue against the usefulness of having feelings: The muddled clarity and encumbered logic being the first example that comes to mind, and it is very obvious that a lot of people suffer more from their ability to feel than they find strength, Happiness or entertainment from it.
In that sense I can understand why some people come to the conclusion that:


"It would be better and easier if I was a Sociopath or a Psychopath!"



Nevertheless I stand to my statement: I'm happy and absolutely pleased that I have emotions and that I can feel.
But as I say above, I haven't overlooked the less pleasurable aspects and I'm aware that some amount of discomfort follows with having feelings. It cannot be helped.
Yet, as far as my personal experiences with having feelings go, the positive outweighs the negative.


Sure, one sometimes do run into situations which brings with them feelings that that are less than pleasant - and sometimes outright painful, though this applies mostly to physical pain - at least for me, but I realize it is different for each individual, be they Psychopaths or non-psychopaths. And yes, I have certainly experienced very unpleasant emotions on several occasions, on and off throughout my life.

But to me it is at least partially a question of being able to make the decision to let unpleasant feelings of the past remain feelings of the past. I mean, to not allow your suffering from the past to rule and dominate you and your feelings in the present.


In other words: To be able to ...

... Let go!


Maybe I'm just really a very, very lucky person in that respect: As I mentioned, I do experience pain and painful emotions every now and then. But the recurring pattern - as I see it - is that such feelings are almost always very brief! This means that even if I sometimes have moments with painful emotions, I know from experience, if nothing else, that it won't last long.
Every now and then - usually very rarely and for many only once in a life time, if ever - extreme physical pain can last for a lengthy period, fx. months. On such occasions I haven't had time to ponder whether or not I'd rather feel nothing, I could think only about wanting to get rid of that specific pain I was feeling at that time. But of course it didn't change anything. I had no choice but to go through it, and through it I got.
The point here is, that once it is over and done with, once it is in the past, I no longer care about it having been there. It is just not a problem, and even the prospect of having to go through the same thing again does not really affect me. Again, I know it will pass...
I've made a thought experiment: What if such a situation never ended and I knew I would have to continue being in that situation for as long as I live? - The obvious answer would be: "I'd kill myself!", but then I went further ... What if I had no way that I or others could end my life prematurely? And my reaction is this: Well I can't really worry about it, because if such a thing should happen, there's nothing I can do about it anyway, and hence it really is not a problem!


And that's another way that I see feelings can be an asset and not necessarily a disadvantage: I can mostly switch my ability to feel on and off at will.
This ability allows me to switch off my feelings when I'm in a situation where I sense they may interfere with my ability to reason and act effectively. potentially counter my opponent/s position or attack.

I can choose not to worry!


This is how I see it, and this is how I feel!...
Yep, I quite do like my feelings!!...
___

Monday, February 21, 2011

A word about Feelings. (Part I)




I can't imagine how it must be to not have feelings.


I know some people are supposed to not have feelings (even me), but I just can't imagine such a state.
I see on many forums and websites about and for Sociopaths i.e. Psychopaths and Antisocials, that a lot of these folks seem to think it an advantage to not feel anything, that it's a good thing and that it makes life better.

But my question is: How does it make life better if you can't feel good in the first place?

When I receive mails from my readers I see a lot of feelings in most, even those who would qualify as Sociopaths and partially psychopathic.


Apparently I'm a psychopath ... or so they say (I like to use this notion a lot. "So they say" gives me an edge, because who can really know for sure what anybody else is or feels) ... but I have a lot of feelings.

Let me give you some examples:


I know what having fun is. I sometimes laugh a lot (truly, not imitation or faking), and I can't help but think life would be a sad affair if I couldn't have fun, find things funny and Laugh from time to time.

I also know about Contempt. It is not entirely a bad feeling. You feel superior to the one or those you have contempt for. I'd not be without feelings like this when they make me feel I have worth, would you?

Then there's Anger. Whereas this feeling can be accompanied by a certain feeling of 'Helplessness' in situations where you're angry because of something that was done to you and which therefore cannot be helped, the feeling in itself - if it is strong enough, and it usually is with me - can be quite empowering. Opposite fear, Anger is an ego-strengthening emotion, basically. And that's why I classify it as a 'good' feeling I'd never want to not experience on a regular basis.

There's also this Deep Satisfaction at a Job Well Done. The 'job' can be any number of things, for example seeing an enemy being torn to pieces, physically or emotionally, or watching a scheme or plan of yours progressing and developing exactly as you'd anticipated and as you wanted it to.

I've already touched on other kinds of feelings in other articles, such as letting yourself go with the rhythm of a pleasant sound like in some kinds of songs and music tunes.

And I'll also not deny that despite my own helplessness where linguistics and eloquence is concerned this is an area that I take great pleasure in, for example in the form of a good conversation or a 'debate'. - I'm hinting at those kinds of debates where the ultimate goal is really most of all to come out as the winner and/or the one who dominates what will be discussed and the defining rules of the concepts and therefore in the end the consensus itself. Another pleasure from linguistics is learning and getting to understand the writings and philosophies of some of the great personalities you come across, in history or in present day (where a lot more people who would otherwise never get heard can get a voice via blogging and other computerized means).


Those are some of the 'good' feelings I'd really not be without and which to me makes life worth living. If it weren't for Feelings, what would make us get out of bed every morning (or evening as it may be)?

Thursday, February 17, 2011

For Some Kind Of Love!...



Listen to this song and take note of the lyrics!...

Often, when I sing songs with lyrics about love, or about other feelings I don't have any personal experience with, I have no inner picture or emotion I can relate it to or associate with the meaning of what I'm singing. In these situations I don't really envision anything. Instead I merely take delight in delivering the sound as best I can, along with the facial expressions that I know is part of what the song is supposed to express.

But there are other times, when I'm in a certain mood... I wonder if I can convince my readers that listening to this particular song gave me a most explicit pleasure as I contrived my own personal meanings and visions to the sounds, to the words and bits of the lyrics... In these situations I can apply visions of bloody scenery of torture in my mind and find it utterly delightful.

The victims in this inner scenery have no names and no real personalities. It isn't personal in any way. There is only the music and the occasional word/s and all that they inspire in the emotional and intellectual state of mind that I'm in at the time.

Will you believe me, when I tell you that the words 'For your Love' in this song, to me in this case on that particular day meant: 'For that Love of seeing you suffer and bring unto you the most exquisite, transcending of destruction and pain!'?

To me this is Beautiful beyond imagination! It cannot be measured nor equaled!

Perhaps just as interesting is it that when I do sing love songs, or other songs with emotional content that is well known to most people but not to me, it doesn't show on my facial expression that I'm not envisioning the same things that you would envision, or that I don't feel these things. Instead I mimic the facial expressions as I remember having seen them on other people's faces - all the while giving it my own, personal emotional content as described above.
___

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Reality - What we see.

A reader wrote:

"Empath people tend to live a lot on what they believe and expect. Maybe some of us are doing the same thing?"


The truth about this is that all human beings live our lives as much as possible in accordance to what we believe, have been taught, our own conclusions, etc., and thus also in accordance to the expectations that follow thereof. And this is no different for Psychopaths.

Yes, I know I'm saying I am not a Psychopath, but I am human and so are Psychopaths, and that means what I say above applies to Psychopaths as does it to every single individual (with perhaps the exception of the most rare of all: The ultimately enlightened deeply initiated Occultist/Religious Person).

I've noticed that many of those who consider themselves psychopaths, Sociopaths and Antisocial - and who very often likely are Antisocial or at least Sociopaths - have a tendency to believe that our lesser emotionality (this being a trait, like so many others, that I share with Psychopaths) which enables us to keep a sharper focus and see more details as well as get a more efficient view over the whole picture, ...that this means we can 'see' and 'understand' reality clearly and completely, as it 'really' is.

To me it is fairly obvious that those who do in reality take this position are no less deluded than the general public, and I know some will likely disagree and perhaps take a less positive stand towards this statement of mine.


I will explain what I see from a wider perspective, including what I think is really the case here:

Many Psychopaths sometimes give statements of a nature such as this:

"The Victim is ruled by emotions, emotions cloud their vision and ability to achieve a clear perception, whereas we/I can view the situation unvarnished by emotional clutter, and I therefore see things as they really are, the weaknesses in the victim are therefore apparent and I easily make the conclusions about how things Really are!"

My claim is that the intelligent Psychopath have no illusions of being able to see anything 'clearly', of seeing things as 'they really are'. What 'we' are instead doing - what we're really doing when we say such things - is giving - or trying to be giving - the impression that we have knowledge about everything; we use our very knowledge that the human psyche act and reacts - physically and psychologically - in accordance to what they believe and expect.

If you believe that I know a lot and that I know much more than you do, you'll be more likely to believe whatever I say is the truth at a later point - that point, when I've worked an individual into a certain spot where I want them to be ... that special spot where they're emotionally and mentally weakened, vulnerably open and therefore susceptible to a statement put forth by me in a dominant and confident matter-of-fact like manner. It is the situation I could call 'A Soil well prepared and ready for the Seeds of my choosing to be sown' ... then I can give any statement and call it The Truth, and the victim will believe me, even if I do not.

And to be matter-of-fact like: I do not believe my statements in these situations. It does not matter if they're true or not, what matters is their impact upon the individual (or 'victim', if you prefer the more dramatic verb) I am saying these things to.

This is what intelligent Psychopaths are doing, I'm absolutely certain of it. And it works because we're good at giving the impression of having 'second sight'-like abilities.

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Interview with B. - Part II.


B: I guess you can safely say my childhood was dominated by Conduct Disordered behavior.


Zhawq: Yes, I gathered as much. B, have you ever been to jail?

B: Man, have I ever been to jail. It's less than 2 months since I was released the last time. Prior to that I did little over ten years for murder ... two in one, no less, and I've done 5 years for murder as a youth also. In between that I've done time for various things.


Zhawq: You mentioned something about not caring about whether others know what you are and what you have done in the past. Will you explain that further?

B: Sure. - Well, when I say I don't care if others know about me - what I am and so on - it's only where the Internet is concerned. The Internet's a new thang to me, y'know. Having been in prison for so long I've never really become acquainted with this brilliant technology, so recently I thought ... after having been browsin' around for some time, and also seein' what you've been doin' here ... "Why not? Might as well see how people will react if they hear from someone like me, and if I just tell 'em stuff from my angle as I really actually do see it.


Zhawq: That's why you agreed to let me have this Interview with you?

B: Yeah, but it's more than that. I've been participating elsewhere also. Just on a single forum though, but it was quite the experience where seeing how others react to someone like me is concerned.


Zhawq: Would you care to tell us about it? How did people respond, and what did you tell them?

B: Well okay, at first I just went to that forum ... y'know, a forum for Personality Disorders, they had a board specifically for Antisocial Personality Disorder ... In hindsight I can see I wasn't doing things the smartest way I could've. I actually invited a trolling numbnut to try and engage me in an online dick-measuring contest, and at the time I thought "Hey, why not? It's a way to find out more so why the hell not", so I humored the bitch. It was a girl, actually. Real Antisocial, which in itself ain't no problem to me, but she was narcissistic as hell too and before I knew it one third of all my posts went in reply to her shit.


Zhawq: Shit? That's all she gave you?

B: Well, Zhawq, I'm not one to call shit on everybody, it's not like that. I was merely being inexperienced ... it's new to me that people can address in every way they wanna and there ain't shit I can do to repay their favors. That lured me into doing what I would've done in real life, where things would also have ended differently. But that's not the issue here.


Zhawq: What's the issue then?

B: The issue, I'd say is that ... Hell!, I'll be damned if I didn't run into the last thing I'd have ever expected from that angle ... the Antisocial angle, that is. Thing is, I came there to be honest, which I was, and still am - I'm still frequenting the place, as I've found there ARE a few genuinely interested parties around, or they come once in a while, anyway - and then, when I'm finally being totally honest, people don't believe me.


Zhawq: They didn't believe you?

B: That's what I'm sayin': They didn't believe me! (laughs out loud)


Zhawq: But ... How come? There must've been a reason for that?

B: I'll be damned if I know, Zhawq. Maybe it's because of the way I started out. But still, I'd think it was quite apparent; y'know, when I talk genuine, I don't exactly say the same kind'a thing that normal people say.
But I've thought about it some more. Latest there was a newly arrived participant who - as the second of maybe two who seemed to sense that I'm genuine ... Hah! 'Genuine', what a word to use for being a psychopath! (chuckles) ... and he started asking me questions about some of the things I'd been saying in previous posts - things most of the others, and certainly not the little shit-head I'd been saying 'em to, hadn't asked further into. The guy actually seems quite intelligent (pauses) ...

...And he says to me at one point: "Y'know, Blake, one doesn't wanna be had! That's why I've been asking about you being a psychopath and stuff, to see if it was for real, that you weren't just posin'!"


Zhawq: Posing as being a psychopath, I've seen quite a few examples of that too...

B: Well I ain't seen any examples o' that ... until now that is. And when this guy wrote this to me, it just made me wonder, 'cause ... y'know, between ourselves, I mean - people who are psychopaths ourselves - we never have any trouble seein' who's what. I mean, have you ever had issues with spotting a psychopath, Zhawq?


Zhawq: Well, generally speaking, no. But that could be for other reasons. I'm not myself a psychopath, you know.

B: I know that? ... (Sarcastic) Right!! ... But you know what I mean. Thing is, I hadn't expected that others, even the Antisocials and the Sociopaths - that they would have such a problem spotting us. But then, I'm fairly sure some of 'em were just having a go-around with an Internet newbie. (laughs)

Still, makes you wonder, eh? Psychopathy has become such a status symbol you can't go clean and be open about it without being questioned, people suspecting you for just being out to gain notoriety or somethin'. I almost regret telling 'em I've killed three people. Ha!


Zhawq: Really? You regret telling them that?

B: (wry smile).

___

Monday, February 14, 2011

A Reader writes...

A reader writes:

Hi. I have been given a number of diagnoses over the years, from being a psychopath (that happened first), over being outright schizophrenic to having Asperger's Syndrome (latest).

The 'funny' thing about all this is that I'm not mentally ill in any way - though I have no doubt I'm not 'normal', or 'common' either.

Every diagnosis I have gotten over the years (with the exception of Psychopathy) was ... I hate to say this, but they were ... orchestrated by myself. I played the part, knowing what diagnosis I was aiming for before the assessment started, every time.

I always play the part. It was the same when I got the Asperger's diagnosis in November 2010. The only difference with this diagnosis was that I actually felt some of it rang true. I think I actually believed it myself, and yet, during the diagnosis session I made sure to fit the pattern. I knew exactly what to do and how.

Then I found your blog, and through your blog, Sociopath World and The Notable Path and others.

What you guys write ... I mean, it just seems so obvious and normal to me. I don't see anything strange - though in your blog, Zhawq, there is more outright "anti-socialness", but I recognize that urge too. To be like you are. I've been like you are, but mostly when I was younger. Now I mostly hide everything. I used to go to jail a lot, I've even robbed a Jewelry and that was definitely not something people did everyday around where I live, especially not considering I used a gun to hold up the guy and his wife. Where I live guns and other weapons are not permitted, our state has very strict control with the population.

In everyday life I've always been wearing a mask. I can be a lot of different personalities, I portray myself differently in every new social setting and when meeting new people. The Mask has always been ... what I am, in a sense. At least in everyday life.
- I'm a female, by the way.

I never gave that psychopathy diagnosis that I got when I was young any credit. I thought: "Well they have to think you're a psychopath when you do something like I did, it tells nothing about the real me!".

Now I'm not so sure.

Friday, February 11, 2011

The Fascination with Psychopaths.

A reader asks:
"Just curious, why would anyone wish to be, or become a psychopath ? Is the media responsible in any way ?"


That's a good question. Yes, I think the media plays a role in this, but the media also reflects what goes on in society.
It's not easy to give a final answer.

But I'll give a few of the reasons that I think have at least a partial role.

In a vast society such as the one we live in (the ones we live in) it can be hard to control and regulate behavior in the population. So we instill rigid laws that everyone must abide by.
However, man's nature is not all good, and there will always be urges towards what we would call anti-social behavior: Egotism, violence, excessive sexual and other kinds of gratification, greed and laziness.

When these urges are being suppressed to the extent where even death becomes 'unnatural' to us, these urges will tend to manifest in other ways, in 'deviant' ways. Psychopaths are good examples of a minority who don't have the inner mechanisms to be self-suppressive (so to speak).

Since we're talking about human nature per se, it is not odd that the few who represent all those things that are not allowed get the attention of the rest of society.

That's one factor, but it can't stand alone since there're lots of criminals who are not psychopaths.


The next thing that comes to mind is 'The Meaning of Life'.

When you live out the majority of your life in the service of someone else, working, learning how to live up to the expectations of society and then fitting in with all those rules and laws etc., it is natural for most to have a 'higher goal' or a 'higher meaning' that'll urge you to keep going and keep abiding by the rules.

We used to find that in the 'higher meaning' of religion. Until very recently - less than 2 centuries ago - there was no such thing as not being religious. Everybody 'knew' there was a Heaven and a Hell, they knew there were angels and devils, and that these helped keeping people's minds on track for what is the 'greater good'.
The angels and gods were the carrot that kept you wanting to be good, and the demons and devils were those who threatened you with pending doom, hell and suffering and all that.
Among humans there were the witches and the sorcerers.

We don't have such scare-crows or witches today. And we need somebody to blame. The choice has lately fallen on the psychopaths because common criminals are so plentiful, so common, they can no longer fill that role. We need something 'exotic'.

That is the fear factor of it all. But fear has two sides and man has always had a fascination for 'evil' and 'bad'. It is linked to what we associate with rebellion because all rebels of all times have been called 'evil' or 'bad' by their representative governments, those in power.

In our culture we can see it with ideas such as the 'lone wolf', in Western movies. But our present time has it's equivalents.

Think of how many movies are made over the theme of the anti-hero?
The anti-hero represents the loner who plays by his own rules and does good that way, we love him especially when we see our governements can't take care of evil in society.

A present day example is 'Dexter', the TV series.

And now we're getting closer to the heart of the matter: Anti-heroes and regular heroes share a lot of traits. They're resourceful, efficient, mentally strong and even physically strong (or tend to be), they don't suffer from common human weaknesses such as fear and self-questioning, remorse or guilt. And they always know what to do, they emanate strong personality and are assured in their righteousness to do what they have to do.

To a lot of people psychopaths represent all of this. Especially for those who are damaged, who have been abused by those who should've taken care of them from early on in their lives. Those who have lost belief and faith in society's ability to keep them safe or in society's goodness. They are the most vulnerable towards falling prey to the false idea of the psychopath's greatness.
They become psychopath wannabes.


Those of us who are psychopaths but who also have a decent intellect know we're not good or special in the sense that we should be seen as the savior of mankind. We know what we are and we have no illusions in that regard.

But a few of us may decide to try and do some good, and we can do so without any problems because we don't have a value system, no morals (wanting to be bad is not less a moralistic way of thinking than wanting to be good is, and to the psychopath it's all the same. We run by what others call 'instant gratification', and there're many ways to gain that. It's idiotic and ignorant to think you can only be happy if you do bad. It's the thinking of a Psychopath Wannabe. So yes, some of us may choose to try something new, to do good f.ex. by joining a forum such as this and tell others the truth about what and how we really are.

But as you can see, people do not like their illusions to be taken away from them, and so they fight back (slander, accusations, etc.).

To a psychopaths that's all in a days' work, of course, and in reality we atually thrive from such 'attention'. That's how 'deviant' or 'sick' our emotional preferences are. We know that all while the wannabes throw mud at us, imagining in their little minds that they're hurting us, they're just showing they haven't understood a single thing and - most satisfying of all - they're hurting themselves, because the point of it all is: You can not hurt me with words!! Why? Because there is nothing here to hurt! My emotions are 'shallow' (for lack of a better word), it takes a LOT more to get to me. I've even been subjected to what some would call torture, and that too didn't deter me. It hurt, physically, sure, but so what? We all hurt SOMETIMES.

Or maybe we don't. Psychopaths are said to have no emotions, and that's not true of course. But we do have fewer kinds of emotions, and those that we do have are apparently both of lower intensity and are much more easily controlled by ourselves than the same kinds of emotions are with the normal human being or the Antisocial.

Psychopathy is nothing to strive for, and it cannot be learned, adopted or created (other than through physically intrusive operational means).

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

All in the Past...?

I found this piece of text on another blog:

"As the Jews were being transported on the trains towards certain death in the camps, I noticed how easily they would turn on each other. The few that suspected their fate should have spoken less about it, the rest of them did not want to know." - SS Officer


I wonder how many people, so called normal (or empathic) people, see what that SS officer said? No, I don't mean 'saw' this, I mean SEE this. How many?

I see that everyday among normal people. I can hardly recall a time where I didn't see this in some way or another.

Even as a child I thought that if I just told the other kids they were slaves and prisoners they'd be thanking me and happily and come with me to 'freedom'.

Of course in a child's mind those words can hardly have been conscious, but I know the feeling was there. I know, because I remember it clearly.


But they didn't become happy, they didn't thank me and they certainly didn't come with me when I left the school premises. Instead they did what the SS officer also said: They turned on me.

The obvious thing would be to quickly learn to never include others in endeavors that have to do with disobedience, and so I learned to be more careful about whom I would include in my projects.

Later I would once in a while take another kid or two with me when I planned and executed escapes from various institutions for conduct disordered kids (yes, I've had the honor of being a returning resident on a few such places), and often even more would want to come along, but by then I had learned my lesson - and besides, keeping things exclusive lent my projects an air of importance, it became a privilege for the other kids to be one of the 'chosen' of my inner circle - so I kept it to an exclusive number of kids that I favored.

But even in these places, and later on in prisons, there was and is a tendency towards timidness when it comes to object against mistreatment.


I have tried several times over the years to 'wake people up', especially for a period during my teens I would try and get through to people, usually some who were ten years older than myself, in the hope that THEY would understand better than those of my own age. But no. The result was the same.


Ordinary people do not WANT freedom. That is not what 'goodness' or 'pleasure' is about to them. They want safety, and in that respect they're much like children.

It took me a while to understand this. But once the idea first appeared things began to fall into place. Suddenly there was so much more that made sense about the way normal people acts. I can still remember how I stopped under a street light and just stood there for a while as I let the idea become an actual though, then a realization, and then - certainty.
From that moment on I never looked at the world quite the same way again.

And it may sound strange, but to me it was liberating, and I believe it has been liberating to the normal people around me too, because I no longer nag them with my constant attempts to get them to wake up and understand ideas they don't have the capacity to understand nor any reasons to want to understand.


It surely implies a good deal of horrific truth, that much is certain. For in realizing that the majority of people in the world are 'build' and predestined for slavery, and as such, a form of imprisonment, is not what we generally associate with a positive dream or expectations of progress for mankind.

However, it sounds much worse than it is ... in some ways. In others, it does of course represent the controversial opposite to how we normally like to see ourselves - as individuals and free to think and progress and follow our dreams - if only the laws are right and our human rights are being cared for by those in power.

By now I think there are at least some others who, like myself, have understood that this is also an illusion.

Saturday, February 5, 2011

Sometimes I Make Them Wanna Die...

"You make me wanna die!"... Are you flattering me, honey?




It does happen sometime that somebody wants to die ... because of me. Or so they say. And I must admit there have been times where I've been helping that notion, sowing the seed and then grooming it carefully, softly, until it bloomed like an exotic plant in their mind. These plants have been parasitic in nature, of course, living off the life of the original tree in there, their Self, their Me, their sense of Identity, until it took over that position. And they never knew their thoughts had been sniped, of course, that an impostor was now the ruler of the garden of their psyche. Watching the process can be quite a wondrous experience in itself, this plant has a multitude of colors and petal forms you'd never imagine.


Death and dying is a central part of life. Without Death and Dying what will put into perspective the wonders and glory of living?

If somehow by some perfidious twisted nature's whim our present scientific research does manage to come up with a way to eliminate, exterminate the genetic pro-creative component of psychopathy, that deadly seed will be gone, but Life will be going too. There will be nothing to poke, provoke, twist and turn upside down, nothing to irritate and promote that extra step that brings about new change, new improvement, there will be no risk taking or reckless behavior, the famous 'appetite for life' of the psychopath will be extinct. Without the dark to complement light, what will stir our curiosity, our urge to learn and know, do, get, give and become more, more of everything?, that everything which is the very Life itself?


The next great revolution of man in his present regressed state of self-induced psychosis and ever-expanding limitation to and of everything around him, will be to understand that Pain and Suffering, Aggression, Violence and Death, are not enemies of Life, they're necessary and important creative forces, we cannot survive without them.


Eradicate the personality version you call Psychopath and you will be eradicating Yourselves, you will be eradicating Mankind!



...And we sold some darn expensive watches in the process (insert smiley of preference)!

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Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Something for the Victims!...

We're all made for Something!

Nancy Sinatra: 'These Boots are made for Walking'.

I've decided this blog should not represent only the perspective of the psychopaths, or of Sociopaths and people with Antisocial Personality Disorder.
I have openly invited everybody who are interested in a debate about values, Good and Evil, i.e. - people who understand the broad nature of the human condition, and who are interested in - seeking up opportunities! - to learn.

But it then stroke me that I've been forgetting about that certain group of people who make up the vast numbers of people who's self understanding and identity has given name to the famous phenomenon: The Victims of Psychopaths.

Now this is surely a horrible position to find oneself in and I can only imagine the tears that are cried when Two - or Three, or Ten, or Hundreds - of Victims come together and share their misfortune.
I wonder if any competition is happening, like we see it among Antisocials people and Sociopaths when they do their best - or worst, as it is - to make others seem THEM as the most Sociopathic person within the settings of a Blog Forum, f.ex.; I can see it now: One victim putting forth one or two descriptions about the most horribly cold hearted act made by the psychopaths in their lives. only to be topped by one of the co-victims who tell about deeds of an even more horribly sadistic nature made by the psychopath - or by one of the psychopaths - in THEIR life.

But worry not, I am not about to leave anybody out of my all-including embrace as I open my arms wide and welcome you ALL to be part of this journey that I have begun with the introduction of this blog.

As an extra gesture of good will and friendly invitation/welcome to my blog, as hopefully participants, I would like to start out by dedication my latest video upload to you! ...


I've decided this blog should not represent only the perspective of the psychopaths, or of Sociopaths and people with Antisocial Personality Disorder.
I have openly invited everybody who are interested in a debate about values, Good and Evil, i.e. - people who understand the broad nature of the human condition, and who are interested in - seeking up opportunities! - to learn.

But it then stroke me that I've been forgetting about that certain group of people who make up the vast numbers of people who's self understanding and identity has given name to the famous phenomenon: The Victims of Psychopaths.

Now this is surely a horrible position to find oneself in and I can only imagine the tears that are cried when Two - or Three, or Ten, or Hundreds - of Victims come together and share their misfortune.
I wonder if any competition is happening, like we see it among Antisocials people and Sociopaths when they do their best - or worst, as it is - to make others seem THEM as the most Sociopathic person within the settings of a blog forum, f.ex.; I can see it now: One victim putting forth one or two descriptions about the most horribly cold hearted act made by the psychopaths in their lives. only to be topped by one of the co-victims who tell about deeds of an even more horribly sadistic nature made by the psychopath - or by one of the psychopaths - in THEIR life.

But worry not, I am not about to leave anybody out of my all-including embrace as I open my arms wide and welcome you ALL to be part of this journey that I have begun with the introduction of this blog.

As an extra gesture of good will and friendly invitation/welcome to my blog, as hopefully participants, I would like to start out by dedication my latest video upload to you.

Enjoy!...

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

That Destructive Draw.


Why are we so drawn to destruction?


I wonder why it is that where most people feel horror at the prospect of a post apocalyptic world I think of it as a beautiful idea. I've always had this image of a future world that lies in ruins. Buildings at fire, broken towers, cars sitting empty and abandoned at the side road, crows roaming the city sky and screaming in alarm when newcomers are nearby.

I guess you can say my vision is about anarchy. For the same reason I always loved to watch movies like Madmax or Waterworld.

I love the idea of such Worlds of Destruction, for me they hold such promise! And they represent enormous potential, the possibility of creating something new, of letting some of the old limbic forces come to the surface once again and drive man forward to a new high, a new Golden Age, if you will - or not, as it may be - but this time not in hiding and not under the name of some disease or disorder label, but as the bringer of new life.

The world as it is now in some ways seems worn out, as if it's going nowhere and you find yourself waiting for that day of destruction with longing in your heart. Oh, how you'll revel when that day comes!

Are such the thoughts of a psychopath? Aren't they merely a boy's romantic fantasy?


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Seems the link feature AGAIN does not work.

http://www.madmaxmovies.com/

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Waterworld